(F18 just to get that out of the way)

My mother cancelled my 6mo appointment with my surgeon and hasn't rescheduled, I don't know when or if she will ever do it. I can't take myself given I don't have a car. I had no complications but I do have questions, so since I can't ask my surgeon directly I wanna ask what your guys' thoughts are. 

Should I be able to work out at this point? I mean besides walking. I've been trying to do more yoga/pilates lately but most of that requires bending which... I cannot do. 

When I sit (even reclined) my neck and shoulder blades ache and it gets unbearable. I draw often so that has been more difficult as well. I've given up on painting for the time being. 

Besides the serious stuff, I do find it silly how whenever I try to something like play a video game, I'm just sitting on my bed with perfect posture 😭 I honestly miss being able to slouch. 

Side note to everyone who has had a fusion (especially those with long fusions!), 

You are strong. You are VERY brave. You are capable. And most importantly, you are human. I personally struggle with that last one... I used to think I was a deformed monster who deserve to see the light of day. Now I feel like 20% more human and 70% more titanium, considering 70% of my spine is now... Titanium. Let this also be a reminder that you are not that monster you may think you are(for those who feel the same).

Before&after T2-L1 Fusion, 6mo post-op/rant/questions