Realizing I loved someone and now it’s too late

Has anyone else felt similar starting the meds? I did read a previous post about someone who felt strongly obsessed about a coworker out of nowhere. I don’t know if I’m going insane or if these are my real feelings?

It’s someone from my past that I always had a soft spot for but could never pin down what the feeling was. Friendship but not friend zoned. a warm, happy, safe, tender, gentle, peaceful feeling I could never quite categorize. Now I’m wondering if it is something I missed out on. Im married so its very confusing…

I’m grieving them like an insane person. like they died or something 😆

I’m also doing therapy and working on trauma so it could be exacerbating it. Not to sound cringe, but I’m realizing I’ve always gone for dismissive avoidants because I thought that’s what love was supposed to feel like.

This came out of nowhere so I’m genuinely confused. I have a therapy apt later thankfully, but wanted to see anyone else’s experienced this, or if there are signs of specific symptoms I should look for? Just wondering if I should stop the meds. I also feel happier than normal. I giggle and laugh and am more loving to my family and pets, so that’s nice too.