hello i am lowk breaking down

hi so i am 20, two year drop for neet and i scored 516 this year. i started my prep in november because whole year i was sick goimg in and out of hospitals. before this in my coachings i used to be in the topper batch but always couldn't make it. i was very mentally prepared to go into bsc this year then further down that path but my parents keep talking to me about a third drop or at least a partial drop. i really dont think i can do this anymore. but they talk to me in a way that makes me feel like i can. like gaslighting me. but then they say things like "youre going to regret this in a few years" "isme itna aage aagayi ho, jo kuch bhi naya karogi usme ekdum shuru se shuru karna padega" "ek baar ayse insaan apna rasta chodh deta hai toh puri zindagi settle nahi ho pata aur regret karta hai"

i am lowk breaking down haha✌️i dont even know why im making this post. but wahi sari re neet ki baatein brought up this discussion again and i just really really dont know what to do anymore. i wish i scored in 200 so they wouldnt have any hope in me. they say so themselves. agar aysa hota toh they wouldnt bother. pata nahi yaar kya bundmaar jeevan hai