Antidepressants in pregnancy after SB?

My daughter died hours before my induction on March 6, 2025 of a suspected cord accident. I have tried several antidepressants and tried being off of them since it happened. I am now taking Effexor and it is the best I have felt since it happened and I am finding myself more hopeful for the future and wanting to try again. However, I am scared of potential side effects of taking antidepressants in pregnancy but I am scared to not take anything. What has been your experience coming off of antidepressants before a subsequent pregnancy or taking antidepressants during pregnancy?