I've become so terrible I've looped back around to being good. This is not what I want.

I don't even really know what to say about this. I've been researching my stances a lot more and realizing I've been patriotic to a country that has never existed, it's always been this ridiculous and stupid, every rule made was by the party I disagree with. My whole worldview is all falling apart. But when I say I hate it, that puts me on the same level as the party I disagree with.

There's no way to continue existing for me.