Hey guys , how are you? How is your life today? I am in kind of breakdown of dysthimia

Hey guys, hope you are well, i wanna only say that i can feel sometimes so low and feel like sometimes there is difficult moments. I get also ADHD with AVPD and to me trust the world outside is became so difficult because i feel like out there there is not too much of good people that can accept me for who i am. I only trust one friend maybe two and my father and my mother. I now live with my parents at 34 near 35 after i let a job due to stress , burnout , high costs of living a relathionship that i thinked that was the one that one that i would have married and i've been treated like i was never enough. So i lost everything and i feel like a failure kind. I had a degree and i worked for 7 years, but this job had destroy me mentally because you had to deal with people 24 hr on 24 hr, especially the most fragile like elderlies or disables or psychiatric people, it's a very human job and i am proud of what i have done, but i never feel like this had satisfied me and always get low pay. Now i am unemployed and confused about the future and i had to choose something that is more near my personality. Do you guys had changed jobs sometimes and what job do you do ??

I am also very disappointed by the social media world, and how many people saw the avoidants, like we are assholes or people without feelings, that the irony is that i am hypersensitive and i was hurt a lot, so it's sad how people see us. I think that we are more than that.

So, i don't know if someone had passed the same or at least can relate. There is songs that to me help me through this difficult days:

Soundgarden - Blow Up The Outside World (1996)

The Cranberries - wake up and smell the coffee (2001)

Nirvana - Come As You Are (1991)

Radiohead - Street Spirit (1995) Sail To The Moon (2003)

Rush - Tears (1979)

Pearl Jam - Jeremy (1991)

Elliott Smith - Pitseleh (1998)

Nick Drake - Place To Be (1972)

Linkin Park - My December (2000)

Helmet - Like I Care (1997)

Neil Young - Change Your Mind (1994)

Placebo - Sleep With Ghosts (2003)