addicted to male attention..

no matter what the attention is its like electricity through my body when a guy objectifies me.. its made me start dressing more for men and subtly show off, bending over in revealing ways to feel their eyes on me.
ive been asked for my number and had dudes pass me and essentially cat call me and the exhilaration literally gives me a tremor sometimes. the one experience i think abt a lot was being on the subway and catching a man half concealed touching himself while watching me. ive had friends go though similar and i feel silly not getting at all traumatized like they did. no one knows im secretly dressing with the intention of getting groped