i don't know how to write this without sounding ungrateful

7 years doing what i do. It's a good role. People would take this job from me tomorrow if i posted it. Two promotions in this seat. But I also realized last week that i haven't recommended my company to a single person in over a year. Used to do it all the time. Don't know when i stopped.

I told a friend last month i was going to leave and she asked me where to and my mouth just opened and nothing came out. So i made a joke and changed the subject.

the thing i'm afraid of is quitting and ending up in the exact same job with a different logo. That's the version where i'm writing this post again in year 9 having moved sideways for nothing. But staying here just because i can't name what i'd move toward doesn't feel like a real plan either. It feels like giving up and calling it patience.

Trying to figure out if this is role fatigue, company fatigue, or just what year 7 of anything feels like.