Crazier then normal..

That's how being in love with you makes me feel.

Like I'm wearing a tinfoil hat swearing up and down it's real.

No one understands what it's like to go absolutely insane over someone like this.

At least not in my life anyway.

They look at me like "get a fucking grip".

Then I take the fucking tinfoil off and boom you're invading my head and heart.

So I throw it back on and write these silly things.

Hoping that maybe if I write down as many encounters you'll show up in person and stop making me look and feel crazy.

It doesn't seem to work only pushes me closer to the edge.

Over the edge is the breaking point.

It's there that I'll really lose my mind.

I change my mind about you so much it's hard to keep it straight in my own head.

Are you my enemy?

Are you trying to get to me in peace?

I've been staring at the cork board in my mind for far too long.

Got this red string running from point to point trying to understand this thing i feel for you.

It's not hate.

It's never that no matter how harsh of a letter I write I never really fully mean it.

It's something that fills me with static.

Something that can't be seen or touched only felt by me.

From the outside i understand what I look like.

A fool.

A creep.

A bitch.

A weirdo.

A "stalker" even tho that's you no offense.

You've got your own cork board and you're doing a lot better at figuring me out then I am you.

I guess i just want to know when you're coming to abduct me?

When are you going to sweep me off my feet?

If it doesn't happen soon like all these fucking crop circles you've been leaving point to then when?

When will you stop fucking with me?

Talked to my creator and told him you "miss seeing me".

Alien man I swear if you don't just come to me...

Ughh.

Said you "hope I'm doing well"...

Well actually no I'm not right now..

You keep sending these mixed messages and I can't understand the gibberish.

Stop asking about me.

Come talk to me!

I don't understand why you can't.

What are you waiting for?

How many more times am I going to find out you're going out of your way to get into my business?

How about you come beam me up in your spaceship and we can talk?

I lied.

There's one person who understands.

They just want me to be cautious with you.

Of course I get where they're coming from but they also think you've got a plan.

So how much longer do I wait?

How much longer do i just stand here staring at the sky wondering where you are?

I never asked you to save me.

I never asked you to even care about me.

You just do for some reason and I want to know why.

Why it hurts so good when we look into eachothers eyes..

Why you have x-ray vision when it comes to me..

Wish I knew what you saw in me that makes you behave this way.

I'm not special.

Sure I'm different and probably the first person like me you ever really thought about this way.

That's ok I know that my skin is the first thing anyone around here sees.

You never made me feel like a alien though.

Quite the opposite actually.

You look at me like you want to get under my skin.

Like you wanna know what makes me tick.

The way your eyes go huge when you see me is something that gives me shivers when I think about it.

Like you're shocked or something.

Then sometimes id catch them really low and they linger too long on parts of my body they shouldn't.

The smile you give me sometimes is enough to shoot me to the moon and back no rocket needed.

Do you understand what I mean?

Do you understand what you're doing to me?

Obviously you do.

Do you care though I guess should be the question..

I'll give you more time.

Not all the time in the world though.

That's out of my hands.

If another space man or woman beams me up before you get the courage to make up your mind then it's gotta be fine right..

Not that I'm looking even though it could be healthy to see different galaxies then yours..

I just don't even want that..

I like yours and I'm comfortable in it..

Comfortable with this waiting because I want you.

Ok so I guess im not super comfortable waiting..

Getting a bit impatient honestly.

If I had a spaceship I'd beam you up so fast your head would spin.

I'm head over heals in love with you.

I'm sorry but I can't control it.

I've tried.

I can write as many mean things i want and it won't change the way I feel about you.

I can "give up" and million and one times and still not mean it.

You control my mind.

Body snatch me.

Hypnotize me.

Do whatever.

I'm crazy over you.

I'll stay crazy because of you.

So why don't you just come and get me already..