Might as well get out while I still can

I already ruined my life and already attempted suicide by running into traffic last week but unfortunately I wasnt hit, I tried to get my life back on track yesterday but I failed at that miserably. knowing that I’ve squandered my only chance at getting better and having a life I want to life coupled with the new virus, idk if I’m allowed to say it here, that’s going to kill us all in a few months anyways. I might as well skip the suffering and end it all now. I have no control over my life because I have no control over myself of the virus coming to kill us all. Goodbye everybody, I’m mad that it’s turned out this way, but I’ve run out of options.