Contradictory views on Sex and Gender

Hello. This is a follow up on my post a few days ago( https://www.reddit.com/r/Catholicism/s/zoZO4pvo7Z). I want to start by thanking the people who responded to that. I was worried it would have been dismissed or removed. Since then, I have been thinking about it and talking with some people.

I wanted to clarify some things about my original post before continuing. I did not know how to write it better at the time. This issue I am dealing with is the feeling of being genderless and was wondering what the Catholic view of that would be. I know that everyone does a mix of actions in their lives that are either masculine or feminine. If someone tries to only do things stereotypically associated with their sex, they set themselves up for a battle they are destined to lose. I was not asking whether or not having feminine traits or actions means that someone is not a man. What I have dealt with is a complete disconnect from being a man. It does not compel me to anything and I hold no weight to it. It seems more accurate to describe myself as a rule follower rather than a man. It is a difficult question to ask about what someone's gender means to them when its role in my life has been guidelines rather than an intrinsic part of myself. I have come to these two conclusions since the first post.

1: I have no connection to my gender. It means nothing outside of societal restrictions such as forms, clothing, and restrooms. It also has aspects that bother me such as being referred to as certain gendered words like sir and Mr.

2: I do not believe God made a mistake in how he made me. The struggles I am currently facing are ultimately created by the society and culture we live in. I do not reject my creation or think it was wrong. I am completely indifferent to whether I was born male or female so it does not come from a desire to be female.

My question to all of you is are these two beliefs incompatible from a Catholic view? Can I be disconnected from the societal role of gender but fully accepting of my biological creation? I would once again love to hear your input on the struggle I am facing. This is causing concern for me as I cannot find an answer as it is too specific.