i have nothing to look forward to in life, i feel depressed

i’m 20/f will turn 21 in a few months. i just graduated college a month ago and idk what to do with my life. i genuinely don’t want to do a 9 to 5 job but i have no other option. my family is not rich enough where i could follow my dreams. my dream is to go abroad (i’m from a third world country) and get a masters degree and do a job there, i also dream of becoming a singer.

now that i’m sitting at home without doing anything i feel like a failure, i get up everyday having nothing to look forward to, i feel like a failure coz i don’t have a job yet and honestly i dont even want a job in my country. luckily my parents aren’t forcing me do to anything as of now but i know that one point i will have to. even the thought of getting a job in my country and doing that to earn money for the rest of my life makes me so depressed. i’m not suicidal but i genuinely i don’t see a point in my life. i know that ill be stuck like this forever

when i was in college i was very ambitious, i had big dreams big aspirations and my grades have always been in the top but now this past one month i’m losing myself. i dont feel me anymore. i genuinely dk what to do. everyday i struggle to wake up without feeling heavy.

i just hate how unfair life that if i was born in a different or better country or if my parents were very rich my life would be different, i would be happier and i would do thing that i actually love. im just frustrated with everything rn