I’m failing college and I don’t know what to do.

I did very well during the first semester. The teachers were incredibly satisfied with my assignments and my attendance was decent. However during the second one lets just say i couldnt get myself to even step a foot to college.. On paper, the limit for the amount of absences you can do is 175 and im already past the limit. (I probably have around 240 by now.. I know, yikes).

According to this, i have already failed first year of college. However, I never received an email or any sort of notice regarding my absences. Last time i asked one of the secretaries in my college about it, she mentioned that if do over 200 absences there is a possibility i will have to take additional exams and decide if im gonna fail or not depending on how well i do.

Today, after a long time of not stepping foot in college (like 2 weeks), i approached one of my teachers during her break and asked her to check the work i had done to point out any potential mistakes or things i could improve on. However, she literally refused to even see it, let alone roughly judge it. She also refused to answer a question i had regarding another assignment and told me she is only okay with seeing my work along with all my other assignments in 2 weeks from now which is finals week… Which means that i can not have any sort of judgement of my work beforehand and potentially completely mess up the other assignment since she never answered my question. She followed up by saying that i have done many absences ( i have only attended her class twice during the second semester) and she will have to discuss with the other teachers if they are gonna have to see me in September.

When i heard this i panicked since that could mean three things. 1) The risk of failing due to my absences is so high that even if my assignments are perfect im not gonna pass and i will have to go through the additional exams during September 2) There is a chance for me to pass without having to see them again during September, as long as my assignments are really good so they overlap my lack of attendance. 3) I have so many absences that i have basically already failed and i should probably not even be going to college right now.

However i ended up not asking her for clarification, since she clearly seemed frustrated with me and was not willing to help me whatsoever, so i ended up saying “I see. Thank you.” and left.

According to what my teacher said earlier, it seems that in order to know for sure she has to discuss it with every teacher, since i have done a lot of absences to many other classes as well, so the decision isn’t just up to her. However, she did not clarify when the teacher’s meeting should happen.. before or after the finals ? It matters because right now im debating wether i should even finish my assignments for finals week or not. Like, even if i did amazing would it matter ? Or is it guaranteed that i will have to go to uni again during September ? Well, if i haven’t failed already..

You may feel like i added some unnecessary details however I did wanna mention my treatment from the teacher. I understand why she would be frustrated, however, I deemed her behaviour as rude and it has made me hesitant to try discussing my situation with other teachers personally. At the same time, I can’t just wait for the teachers to do the meeting and decide. Because if i failed, then i need to know as soon i possible so i don’t have to stress myself with the upcoming finals.