[M4F] I know I have a breeding kink, I dont understand it fully though.

I know I have a breeding kink, I dont understand it fully though.

It took a while to come to terms with my breeding kink, realising it is more than just loving creampies. Feeling this innate drive and obsession. I tried to explain this to my ex but she said it was disgusting and didnt want to talk about it. So of course i dropped it and never mentioned. Never explored it. Lately though this obsession is only growing stronger and I cant get it out of my head. I dont know if trying to repress the thoughts made them intense or it is just something that came with getting older. I dont understand why i am so obsessed with these thoughts, this kink. Feels more like a purpose and I am wasting my life not indulging these thoughts. Every part of me is screaming to give into these thought. This feels like nature to me but maybe it isnt, maybe these urges are wrong.

I am hoping to meet someone as consumed by these desires as I am, try to learn what makes other people tick and in the end gain better understanding of myself