26 [m4f/tf] I want to be slowly blackmailed and brainwashed into the perfect subject.

My name is Matthew, I'm a subject who has been into bdsm, femdom, and hypnosis since before I was 18 and it's definitely affected me. Before I ever watched normal porn I was being commanded in hypnosis videos and joi's to cum on command and since then normal relationships don't seem to turn me on in the way that true power exchange relationships do.

I fantasize about blackmail frequently and the idea of being controlled and not being able to escape makes me so horny and weak, at the same time that it makes me scared and nervous. Im hoping to find a Dom that not only knows how to control, but also how to guide and manipulate and slowly gain more control of me to help me not back out. I'm not looking to just give up all the information up front and be trapped from the start, and if I see that happening honestly I'll probably run. I'm looking to be slowly taken advantage of, to give little pieces of information that over time turn into the point of no return. Like frogs in a boiling pot of water, if you go to fast I'll jump, and I know that from experience. I know this probably sounds difficult and annoying and if you hate this idea that's fair and I'm just not the sub for you.

As for kinks, I am into femdom, hypnosis/brainwashing, joi, tease and denial, chastity, humiliation, bondage, cfnm, ass and boot worship, latex, some crossdressing in private, anal play, pegging, and some others I can't think of, and open to a lot of kinks. My main limits is scat, piss, public play, draining, and permanent harm/changes. I am ok with trubuting some money but I have my own bills to pay and life to live and honestly I'm not trying to fund someone else's lifestyle yet.

I work full time and live with a roommate so while I do have some privacy in my own room I can't be crazy with what I do. I don't own a lot of toys rn but I'm open to buying more online.

In my free time I enjoy hiking, cooking/bbqing, playing on my Xbox and reading books. I like a lot of nerdy sci-fi stuff and talking about nerdy interest, whether it's my own or your's. I'm a taller and admittedly overweight guy but I'm trying to work on that and have lost some weight already. Please reach out if I interest you at all and if not thanks for reading anyway and have a good day.