Having one of the worst days.

Hey everyone. So I’ve been pet sitting for my uncle these last few days and I’m supposed to be here for two weeks total. I’ve noticed some weird things the last few times I pet sit for him but I kinda just brushed it off as nothing. Some times it would seem like this Amazon tablet would turn on whenever I was near it and also my uncle would subtly mention things that I only said on the phone in the house with someone else when he called to check in. I just always have this feeling like someone’s watching me or something and I never knew why. Well a few days ago when I checked in here, he called me to ask me to leave the basement lights on ( where the dogs crates are) because quote “when the dogs can see during the day, they don’t bark as much” which really threw me off, it was such a weird random request. So I went to the basement another time to do laundry and something caught my eye. It was the same tablet from the kitchen, but this time it was propped up facing the dogs crates. So now I know that this had home monitoring capabilities this entire time. I would be walking around the house indecent (to my standards, shirt no bra etc) around this tablet for the last 5 times I house sat for him. Then yesterday I noticed that the backlight is suuuuper dim. Almost like they decided to try to conceal the tablet now, but you can still see the motion detection backlight come on whenever I’m nearby. It’s just really uncomfortable, my daughter has been staying with me and I feel like if he didn’t disclose that camera, what’s stopping him from having bugs or hidden cameras around. I feel so violated. Like he’s entitled to have home security, but asking for me to keep the lights on so his camera can see but not just saying “yeah I have a pet cam in the basement” this is just so uncomfortable. I hate it here. I don’t want to even speak for the few weeks I’m here now.

So I’m already dealing with that, went home for a bit got in a small disagreement with my husband and then my neighbor was being an ass to me. Then I had multiple road ragers and also found out my medication is giving me an allergic reaction. All of this and I currently have no one to talk to about it. I feel alone and I have no one to call anymore since I pretty much cut everyone who was using me and abusing me out of my life. Today sucks. It’s also the first day of my summer classes in college for this particular class and I was otherwise very excited for this but now I am sooo on edge. I have therapy later at 3 luckily already scheduled, but still, this was supposed to be a good day. Sorry for the book 🙈