Feeling distant with BF

Hindi ko alam pero lately I feel so distant with my BF of 10 months. Kanina sa VC may body cues nako hinting I need comfort because I had a rough day at work (also on my last days of period so may factor yung moodiness) pero disappointing lang na di na niya ako tinanong about dun.

He asked why I sounded sad pero when I said the reason, di na niya siya nag-ask about it. I was waiting for him to let me share & open up about it pero nag-iba ng topic. Nakaka-sad lang. Ta’s nawalan nako ng gana.

Alam ko pwede naman ako magshare & expound on my problem pero gusto ko naman siya mag-initiate, hindi yung ako na lang lagi. Kadalasan kasi ako na nago-open up diretso ng prob ko. Gusto ko yung ako naman tinatanong, para lang ba makita na genuinely concerned siya sakin.
Maybe its period hormones rin kaya ako ganto. Nag-overthink.

Tas kanina, sa good night message niya, first time na hindi mahaba. Dati kasi may sweet messages pa like ‘sweet dreams, mag-iingat ka if may hatid tom’ etc. but tonight, its just plain ‘good night i love you.’ Which is so unlike him. Hindi ko alam kung nafeel niya pagiging distant ko sa VC. Tas when I shared my dinner with him sa chat, di rin nagrep ano dinner niya. Eh dati naman nagsa-share rin siya. What gives?

Wala lang, naalala ko lang yung phrase na ‘to be loved is to be seen’ ba yun. Kasi nafe-feel ko siya. I felt that my BF did not see me enough nung nag VC kami (my sad mood) and now I feel distant to him. Nakaka-sad lang na instead of comforting me, he just drifted to another topic. I didn’t feel loved at all