20 F, Need advice! I felt this is right place!

I completed my highschool at 2024, ani ma confuse vaye k garni vanera life ma! Ani maila carrer choose gareko at 2025 ho pure gap but i worked at a school tyo bela!! Ani maila apply gare for australia ani guys mero visa reject vayo! I have single mom and my big brother who does basically nthg!! Ani aba malai Nepal basnu chaina mero sathi haru ko bachelors sakina lagi sakyo ma join gare chuina man ni xhaina Australia ko process ko lagi 10 lakh vanda badi khatcha vayo tax haru document garda! Ani aba malai Nepal ma basnu ni chaina! Mero ta na koi sathi chan na keai cha ma basera ni k garnu😭😭😭

Like I dont wanna live here in Nepal, Ma k garam ma ghar ma basirachu maila keai garechaina arko country try garchu sochirachu tara 2027 Jan intake cha mero course ma yo timr k garam, feri lagena vani😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I am thinking of ending my life cause i literally do nthg i cant even wash dishes😭 Like ma sanga teti ni energy huna I have this feeling to die every min!