Any advise, did my first lesson today.

Had my first lesson today and hated it. I felt like I was being talked to in gibberish. Manual goes over my head. I know I am only one lesson in, but I just genuinely do not see the point in learning something so overly complicated when I could switch to automatic? My instructor has no duel controls which made me feel less safe in the vehicle and made my anxiety overall worse..

My instructor is nice, and never shouted at me, but she was stern, often telling me I could “damage the vehicle“ when I made a mistake. When I got into the driver seat she did the cockpit drill and asked me to push the clutch down to see if I can reach it. She said “push it to give it a feel and see if your leg feels comfy doing so.” So I pressed the clutch, brought my leg back up and put it back down on the clutch again for an extra feel. She then said “No, no, don’t pump the clutch that could damage the vehicle.” Upon talking to my parents they said that’s a load of bs, and It’s not like I was repeatedly slamming the clutch down.

I stalled a couple times and I have extreme anxiety and autism and apologised profusely, while she never raised her voice, she also did not reassure me that it was okay that I made a mistake , and gave not much feedback if I even did well on the lesson. Leaving me feeling like a complete failure, when maybe in her mind I did okay?

Do i change instructor?