Lost the least hope I had in relationships...

(Customary start) I am m23, I've been in 2 relationships in my past, 1 was in skl, where she left me after a better looking guy, then in my college I had crush on a girl who was perfectly matching my imaginations (or expectations) both by looks and character, but I kinda confessed and got avoided, and a relationship for a month in btwn where things went too fast and off charts, too much within a month, my bad I felt overwhelmed and I gave up being a scaredy cat, then after 2 years, just came across a girl who was from my school and with whom ppl first alleged my relationship with...for having same snacks box, and we talked for a few days, and she clearly remembered all those details, and she asked help for her senior's projects and I helped her too, then just asked a favor back by treating me for her bday, she said ok but then hesitated saying that her budget is tight, coz she has already said she has more pressure in workplace (she's a physio btw) then I said a diet coke is enough, I kinda grew feeling towards her ngl, but never showed it in any possible way, then she called me the next day after her work to go buy the said coke, but I was going to meet my sister who gave birth to a girl child a day before this day, I asked if she wants to join but shes an introvert kinda person, then I said we'll meet the next day, which also got cancelled coz she felt tired that day, again next day I put on a reminder, and against got cancelled coz she had some case to attend, then she herself initiated the coke talk for a week or some, then she totally ghosted me...

I feel like I disturbed her or smthng, her reposts are kinda depressing (like she's in some grief of her old relationship or smthng) then few days ago her reposts were kinda like " it feels good ignoring someone after he asks too much" smthng like that and such other reposts...

I'm just tired atp...idk...here's the only place I can't yap coz my frnds kinda made me feel like an attention seeker for seeking help...

Ref. She's a year older than me and is also one of a kind baddie...I like her but if someone doesn't like us back we can't do anything about it isn't it?...

Thanks if you have read this far🙏🏽 may you never face such lows in your life