My CM is planning a party …

My favorite and most frequent CM told me recently that he wants to plan a get together of some of his friends where I am the only NM. He thinks I have met one of them before but for most it would be our first encounter.

I am excited by the idea but also have questions like:

- Will they be into the idea
- Will they be into ME specifically? A big part of being the NM for me is being an object of desire (objectified but unrequited)
- Will they be okay with the limits?
- What if someone I know walks in? (Unlikely but not inconceivable). Embarrassment is not a turn on for me at all.