yearner final boss or tanga lang talaga me???

problem/goal: should i stop liking him by confessing or just stop my feelings entirely? kasi tbh i have no intention of confessing. everrr.

so the context is: me (f21) and my guy friend was close three years ago pero nung end of the school year, biglaan nalang us di na masyado nag uusap and nag interact. (i think he had hints na that i liked him nung time na yun😭😭) if i had a choice i wouldn't like him naman, pero kasi teh ewan parang puppy love din kasi namin isa't isa nung jhs bastaaa ewan. wala magawa nagustuhan ko nalang ulit. cute kasi tas ang caring and masaya kasama (balik na sa topic teh, focus sa goal gaga) basta ewan kainis. so ayun kahit nag transfer na us schools pero parang default crush ko pa rin siya, not that deep tho. pero this year talaga my feelings came back. nag h-heart kasi siya stories ko pero yung solo pics and pretty pics ko lang🥹

AND I KNOWWWW na di ko dapat bigyan meaning kasi nga we were close noon, pero tanga kasi ako so ayon delusyon ang gaga. pero sa three years na yon, everytime na umuuwi siya sa hometown, di kami nag kaka encounter. and ang small ng town haaa. lahat ng classmates ko noon na encounter ko na pero siya wapakels talaga sa three years yan haaa. kahit mutual friends namin nakausap na rin siya and nakikita rin nila around town (wow, edi kayo na). our only interaction is sa chat when we greet each other hbd every year walang palya HUHUHU. wala rin kasi siya pa na soft or hard launch na dating shits. sabi din ng mutual friends parang wala daw si bossing na date (wehh vv pogi nun tas wala na date???). sana mag gf nalang siya (which is ako, jk) para maka usad na ko, jk.

sooo ito na nga ang question ko. is this God's sign? na wala na talaga and i should stop na kasi, imagine, sa loob ng three years never ko siya nakita sa hometown or anywhere irl. ik i sound dumb guys pero i feel like last straw ko na talaga kasi to. nakakapagod and having him as a default crush? ikinamamatay ko, jk.

judge niyo ko mga mima thnx mwa