Was this the right decision? Need some words of encouragement.

Hi!

There is something that is slightly worrying me, whether I made the right decision or not. I've been battling with depresssion, anxiety for many many years. Dating back like 15+ years when I first noticed symptoms. It was better and worse but always there. Lately my depression got slightly better but anxiety increased severly, to a point where my body didn't feel mine and right, on verge of panic attacks, heart palpitations etc.

I've been seeing a therapist for many years, sometimes on and off but now for approximately 1 year. I feel like it helped in some ways, I learned techniques to deal with anxiety, relax my nervous system etc, and I've been doing those but felt like it still didn't help much, especially in the longer run.

So yeah after lots of contemplating, I decided to visit a psychiatrist, because I felt like I need some "extra push" to feel better, in order to heal myself and do something with my life. Long story short, went to a doctor, got diagnosed with depression and anxiety and got prescribed 2 pills/antidepressants in quite small dosage I think. Well, 2 days in and I start questioning myself and whether this was a good decision. I never really wanted to end up here, that's why I tried to "Solve" it by going to a therapyst, journaling and stuff. But didn't help the way I expected, my body seems to be stuck in a certain state. I'm actually very afraid I'll get addicted, or when I stop I'll feel worse than before and all of that. Does any of you have any soothing words to tell me? Like it's not as bad as I think it is, it doesn't change me into someone I am not etc. I don't know I'm afraid and contemplating to stop taking the meds... In my mind it feels like this super harmful drug that I'll get addicted to forever and ruin me. It's probably not the case and it will help be feel better.

So yeah, what do you think? Any of you in similar situation? DId you take or do you take antidepressants? If you stopped, how was it afterwards etc?

(I take cipralex and alprazolam)