I’m making this post here because I don’t think it belongs on relationship advice

I’m young and like still learning but one of my relationships recently went sideways and I’m not quite sure what to think of it for this instance and simplicity I’ll leave out the polyamory and D.I.D from my partner

basically since like a month ago since the breakup where they blamed me for all sorts of stuff like saying I was selfish and unloveable and i was too sexual and I just overall was an unstable insecure asshole.

and I want sugar coat it I coulda been better I was definitely mean at the end of the relationship after getting ignore and could have handled things better I could have been better with a lot in the relationship and I have a history of being sexual with sexting and nudes and such but I always try to get consent first with saying like is this ok or is this alright did I make you uncomfortable etc and I hate feeling blamed or making people uncomfortable. I’ve cut off all contact and despite that I am no longer talking or interacting with them at all I still feel guilty though I know it’s not it ally fault and I’m actually trying to change. While it’s a complex situation I wanna start moving on and improving things and making content but I don’t want to go under a persona to disguise Myself but dont want to get canceled and if they try i dont want to go through old messages to defend myself because they see me as a terrible person who tried to understand them and tried to be a good partner. i just dont want to be seen in a bad light and need advice and im unsure what to do while i have reflected and i am healing slowly from all this and improving myself i still get fears of being put down and made to look like a monster since i hate making people feel uncomfortable. i just want to hear other opinions and I’ll probably wait a few years but still want others opinions.