Thinking about myself

I'm 25 I'm unemployed, disability, I know that I'm autistic never had a girlfriend I spend my time just with my self whatever I do I've experienced a lot of things that why I'm the way I am and I think about these things that I would want I feel like everything is fine but It's just me that feels that I'm overly worried on what I thought I would have sometimes I live with my parent It just feels like a little hurting when I'm not having anybody there to be with especially not having a girlfriend and I got things that I do enjoy rn I have some anxiety lately that I get and I don't know what the future is gonna show me at the moment which I'm betting it's gonna be lonely and It's hard to think about being alone these days sometimes