Despite all of my efforts, I failed my first class here at UT: Acct 200

I am a type of person who makes sure that they always come prepared when going into exams. I have spent 150$ on accounting tutoring due to me wanting to absolutely do well on my final exam and on the class due to my grade being on the tipping point. I have class during the Supplemental instructions, so I am almost always never able to go to them. I am highly upset about my performance and the final exam. I had little to no time to go over the questions due to the way that answering  takes a lot of time to go through them. There were some questions that I don’t think I ever saw in any of the practice quizzes from the chapters or in the class assignments. It feels that no matter what I do in this class, it’s never enough. I take my education seriously, however this class makes me feel absolutely stupid beyond reason. 

I want to let everyone know that I am not stupid. There are things that I don’t know or don’t understand in any subject, but I am not stupid. This class has dragged me into the mud despite me doing everything that I can in order to succeed. I’m an advertising major and I understand that I probably will not use this information to my future career. My graduate tutor kept telling me that I was one of the smartest people he tutored and gave me some notes and pointers to really take note of when taking the exam. Even going through all the the chapter quizzes and exam review, I felt confident in this final exam.  I structured my cheat sheet in a way so that I can do the absolute best that I could do. I wasn’t expecting a perfect score, but I was at least hoping to pass the class. 

I normally don’t get this upset at my performance in exams. However, I did everything I can to pass this class while also battling severe depression and anxiety throughout the semester. I done well in all my classes, but this one. This class just makes me feel that I am an incompetent fool who doesn’t know anything. I just feel that in my life, no matter how much of a good first step that I take, I always mess up. Despite my good intentions and trying to be the best that I can possibly be, the slight mistake that I make ruins everything that I built up. Im just fed up and just absolutely frustrated in how this class made me feel. 

The worst part of all of this, I don’t think anyone cares. So long as they passed the class, my issues don’t concern them. I don’t understand why I struggled so much in this class, when Im trying to do everything that I can to pass. But I doubt I will get any sympathy from anyone, regardless of my performance. Because despite the unseen battle that I was combating all this semester and in my life, my final grade tells another story. Because at the end of the day, people want results and I didn’t meet those results. I failed because of it.