It’s less deep but still severe

I am so tired. Despite the OCD episode being brief and shallow I am still exhausted. The nice thing about my new medication regimen is that I can just shift focus onto something else, I don’t ruminate or obsess for long and distraction works. So now I have some coping techniques available to me.

But Jesus fucking Christ was it bad. Exhausting. I felt filthy, literally like I needed to clean myself, scrub and take a shower (I didn’t). I mostly just sit through the intrusions btw. I don’t obsess, check or ruminate but sometimes I noticed I start to need reassurance to ground me. And to my surprise it works and there’s a lasting effect.

I want and need this shit GONE. I literally tried most medications, they don’t work. What works very well turned out to be Vyvanse/Elvanse and Wellbutrin.