I was SA'ed as a child and only fully understood it recently. Just needed to say it out loud.

I was 7-8 years old. An older boy (14) at my house manipulated a game we were playing into something that crossed every line. I didn't understand what happened at the time I just felt scared and weird and like I'd done something wrong.

My brain buried it for years. I only started remembering it properly about 2 years ago, and I only told my mom in 2024. She told me it wasn't my fault. I cried a little.

I don't know where that person is now or what kind of man he became. Part of me hopes he grew up and changed. Part of me is just angry.

I'm not posting for advice. I just needed to say it somewhere. It happened. It was real. And it wasn't my fault.

If you went through something similar, you're not alone.