why do I want to be 45 year old man with back issues

I’m a girl, I’m feminine, and I’m happy being a girl. But lately, I’ve been feeling this really specific envy that I don’t know how to explain. I was watching A Bronx Tale and seeing the scenes of Calogero and his dad. Or honestly just any moment in the movie and I felt like I wanted that life. I’ve become obsessed with the whole vibe of the custodians, the mechanics, the guys with the gold chains and the chest hair eating chicken cutlet sandwiches, or the cops just hanging out with coffee and donuts.
The weird part is I want to date a guy like that, but I also want to be one of them for a week. It’s reached a point where they are basically my main fashion inspiration right now, which feels a bit off considering I'm a girl who isn't even into sports or cars. Is this a common thing? Do I need therapy? 😭