Never thought it would be me

Just had THE FIGHT and I think I don’t want to come back ever to that. It’s devastating but it’s something that he was threatening before when’d we had big arguments and the idea was looming there ever since. Now I wish I took it a sign and ran or started saving money. Now I will have to move out (I am in a foreign country with no support system) because I just can’t stand it anymore. The worst thing is that I can’t call my mom and tell her that I am divorcing because she believed in this marriage so much it hurts to break her illusion but at the same time I want to talk to her so much. I am just so done it hurts. Just wanted to vent. How unfair things can be sometimes.