Medication change

For almost a month I have had nonstop thoughts about my LO. Someone who I’m not able to get ahold of and someone I haven’t spoken to in years. I have epilepsy, something I was diagnosed with this year, and my Keppra has made it unbearable. I didn’t think about her a whole lot until this drug.

Friday I am going to be admitted to the hospital to get new medications. I’ll have a chance to speak with a psychiatrist and psychologist and be monitored 24/7 while my epilepsy meds change. It’s for the best to do it this way. Maybe my obsessive thoughts about my LO will die down.

How do I eliminate my obsession for my LO on new meds? How do I stop this from happening again? Right now I really miss her. I was just a fan to her and she was a musical artist. It was never more than that. But I miss her so bad. She was my Sun. I’m hoping the new seizure meds change how I feel, but what if they don’t? What do I do? Do I try and reach out to her somehow? Is rejection better than fantasizing about her? I just wanted to be her friend.