I fear death

I'm scared to die and go back to the state where I feel like i wasn't just born yet, All that time in life just to see a void after death to the point i wanted to live forever

It's been haunting me since I was a child. heaven if existed, I very likely won't get there but burn into deep fires of hell where gods presence isn't in here while a hundred thousands of years pass and nothing is over.

Just hearing both of them is straight up horrifying me, I can die like any time, tomorrow or tonight. Be murdered or drown and i will never know when, if i haven't posted for over a year? Might be a goner now.