It's tough when I know I messed up

Our relationship ended because of things that we cannot resolve, there is no cheating involved but we werent able to see each other eye to eye, approaching to the end of our relationship we were just hurting even more and resenting each other even more.

I wish I was able to step back and see it clearly then, because everything that went wrong in our relationship was fixable, had we just give each other more space amd empathy.

We lived together for 3 years and we love each other so much, I wish i wasnt harsh on him, even though I understand the context of my behavior.

I am waiting for him until next year January, I am continually messaging him even though he blocked me on social media and phone number.

I just cant give up yet. I love him and I will give him time to heal, I will also take this time to heal myself.

If next year he contact me again, I will make sure that majority of my issues will be resolved, otherwise, I will proceed to move on.

This is my plan and I have already made my decision.

I am wishing for the best for both of us, together or not.