Using Za for introspection

Hey everyone.

I haven’t smoked weed in almost 4 months and I stopped because I got an episode of psychosis that was caused by smoking weed with no sleep for 3 days. There was other things that contributed to the psychosis to. It’s a long story.

For the past 6 months I’ve felt very depressed and mentally blank. My life is good on the service but I feel dead inside. I want to smoke weed again for the introspection. I’m hoping I can gain some new insight regarding why I feel so damn depressed. Is this a bad idea?