Does anyone else hate paying rent

And that's a really big part of why you are homeless? Idk man. Why would I give 90% of what I have for the month on something that in my opinion should be free. I got harassed out of 6 shelters in NY and now the cops in Westchester have basically bullied me out of Westchester right as soon as I got a job in Queens. I'm so fucking scared of the shelters in NY but I really don't like paying rent especially when I'm depressed and don't even want to be on earth. I need to get to set very early in the morning to queens. Or I could just move back to Nebraska and give up on acting. Does anyone have any ideas? I barely have any money. I'm afraid of long Island bc my ex and his girlfriend want to hunt me on there.

The cops arrested me at the mall today and gave me a appearance ticket for "trespassing" even tho I have video proof that the guy who owns the mall said it was ok to go to the mall.

Today is my birthday

Shit has been so awful. I haven't slept in a bed in like 2 months. It's crazy the shitty levels of existence I force myself to adapt to.

Love u