o7 Desimal

Usually i have 0 input in thos sub besides some posts showing off vinyl I've grabbed. This is something else though. I am 3 hours late, but i wish to make a post about it anyway.

On the 23rd of May, 2006, the artist who inspired me to make DnB of my own comitted suicide. Graham March, better known as Desimal, was 25 when he died. I wasn't even born, i came around in 2008.

When i first discovered his music, i was in a horrible situation. I had just been diagnosed with MDD, i was trapped in a domestic violence situation and i was suffering a great mental decline. When i had first heard his music, i thought it was beautiful. And then i read into the story of the artist. It hit a little too close to home, i don't know why. I remember reading about how he said it was like 200 television channels on all at once, and you couldn't turn them off. Something about that was haunting. Still fucks with my head when reading it. His story pushed me to want to make music of my own and now here i am beginning production on my debut album.

I realised that if the event where i died had come, that i wanted to leave behind something for people to enjoy, something for people to potentially be inspired by. A written note meant fuck all. Music is a force that can play with your heart quite easily, and if i constantly feel like shit i want other people to be able to feel happy.

I wish i was born earlier so i could go up to the guy and just say thank you. His sound dug me out of a fucking pit and it honestly hurts knowing he won't ever know his music had that effect, because he is no longer with us.

I know ghosts aren't real nor would they be able to read reddit posts but Desimal, thank you, truly, and rest easy. You live on in the hearts of your family, your friends, and the people you inspired with your incredible music.

18/11/1980 - 23/05/06.

Sorry if this post is weird. It's just a bit of a gut punch for me, and i really wanna just pay my respects to him.

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