i miss u mama🥺

i mis u ma, those words always and will always be said.. its been like 6 yrs since i last saw you before you rode that ambulance, that one last phone call before u were admitted to the hospital thinking i will see u again, but life's full of surprises and within those 24 hours since the last that i have with u, it all changed my life forever. i never grieve enough losing u, never had the chance to hug u for one last time since u came home in ashes.. i was thinking those memories i had with u, growing up, being the rebel that i am but u always forgave me, loved me for who i am and just supported me. now im being tested with life's trials and i just wanted to go back to your arms, feel ur embrace and telling me its just a bad day not a bad life, i wanted to hear your voice heck even those physical beatings that i recieved growing up just to know you are there. but sadly all i have was your memories and those teachings, wisdom that u have guided me, at 39 i still long for u but i cannot have u anymore. im wishing u are here but i know u just looking me from there above, visit me in my dreams soon, i wud love to feel that hug again.. love u mom🥺