Please help what can i do if me/cfs and other disabilities are making me have mental health crisis

I have small fiber neuropathy, moderate me/cfs and a bunch of other stuff, some undiagnosed. Im passive suicidial 24/7 and its only gotten worse. Ive tried many psych meds, im in therapy, see a psychologist and psychiatrist, zero mental health improvement. Im stuck in this shit body and am debating on going to the hospital and telling them im suicidal from my shit health. I have no plan though so ill just get sent back home, and go into pem. For mental health ive tried CBT, pain psychologists, zoloft, wellbutrin, duloxetine, trazadone, propranolol, seroquel, prozac, and a bunch of other meds i cant recall the names of. I got offered TMS but i cant leave my house everyday. I cant afford ketamine infusion.

No one seems to deal with mental issues caused by / exacerbated by physical issues tho. Is it worth a try or should i not bother. I take lyrica , norityptline and tramadol for the pain. But its mentally just too much. I cant do anything much anymore because of my health and depression only worsens. Trying to get on disability too and its been a crapshoot. Im 20 M if it matters. Idk what to do. I just keep getting told call 988 or go to thr hospital. I avoid hospitals bc they never help me. I saw some stuff about intensive out patient programs but im mostly housebound from my disabilities. I cant leave everyday or ill be in a worse physical state. Im lucky if I can leave for an appointment once a month. I cant find shit for resources for my situation on google. If anyone knows anything please tell me. This has been ongoing for 9+ years. For my physical issues ive seen countless specialsts i dont want help for that i want help for my mental state.