I can't believe how dumb I was to spend money on Fireworks as a young Teen. How can I look at that now that I'm nearing thirty years old?

From when I was 12-14 years old, I used to save my money for one special day of the year. I did it once in my adult life too during covid six years ago and had some left for the next year to set off. Maybe I was chasing nostalgia of my earlier years of setting off fireworks with my family or friends and doing that again. Maybe because I grew up in a small town with nothing to do that the summer or 4th of July brought so much excitement that didn't exist much or any during other parts of the year. Maybe because you can only buy them, set them off at certain times, and set them off in certain places that It felt like a privilege to be able to do it when I did. Maybe I wanted to feel powerful, see pretty colors in the sky, and see the unique personalities of every firework. I didn't know anything about Investing as a Kid and no one suggested that I could do that but only other things that I could spend my money on such as a bicycle or video games but those things didn't appeal to me at the time. Maybe it was for the experience. There was the Internet and YouTube back in 2009 and 2010 but it wasn't as comprehensive as it is now to see and research all of those fireworks. Maybe because it would of took what felt like a very long time at the time to save money for something more meaningful like a vehicle when I turn 16, a vacation, or perhaps my college education when I got older in case I didn't get financial aid or scholarships. I also probably thought at the time that I was too young to keep my money safe in a bank account and probably feared my money being stolen so I felt I needed to spent my money to atleast experience it.

Can I look back at this as maybe I was doing something outside with People? Even though it was expensive that atleast I wasn't socially Isolated glued to my Phone like many Kids today are. It look me a long time to regret the money I spent because it wasn't Initially but more like 10-15 years after it had happened and yeah I could say that I learned from that experience but I just hate cliche sayings.