AN making me go cave man?? Any tips to chill this out?? 😭

OK, so I’ve been recovering for the past few months and it’s been going good like I’ve been taking the baby steps and not forcing myself to do anything that I don’t wanna do in that specific moment.. last week we went to a restaurant and I haven’t been to a restaurant in a while. Usually I eat at home where I can portion my own food and I’m more in tune with my body but for some reason, I don’t know what happened, but I felt like I was being so watched when I was at the restaurant I just could not touch anything at first until I tried the wings that is— something in my brain just turned off like the little thing that I used to kind of intuitive eat but that intuitive eating thing went out the window and I managed to inhale around 60 wings I had sauce all over my face, including my shirt and my pants, and I looked like those really messy Mukbang Youtubers when they purposely make a mess except I guess I didn’t really mean to make a mess But when I snapped out of it, I was just looking at my hands and feeling how dirty my face was and I was so disgusted with myself- but after that day, I have not been able to snap my brain out of it at all. For some odd reason, it’s gotten really bad with meat specifically Like just this evening my mom made steak. Tell me how on earth I managed to consume two New York strip steaks alone with 2 baked potatoes and STILL want more?? 😭 and these large quantities of food are not taking me that long to get down I got really curious and I timed myself. I started eating at 7:32PM and finished at 7:35PM.. i’ve been drinking the water And I’ve been eating fruit and I’ve been making sure I take all of my multivitamins. I don’t know what is turning my brain off and making me get like this. I don’t even know what this is. This is a new behavior that I never had- Does anybody have any tips or something that can help me get my mind out of this almost primal state?