made me a sad drunk

drunk rn and as usual thinking about my sa, had to step out of the club because i saw him in every guy and got paranoid and weird asf and none of my friends know. i used to love going out, now i just get flashbacks and paranoid the whole time. i don’t think about him that much when im sober, but i was drunk when it happened and now every time im drunk i think about it. sorry this was rambling lol