Relapsed.

Was doing good. Did some morning exercises, played football, actually talked to people normally without fetishizing girls. Was actually focusing on improving my running, talking to girls normally, etc

Then I kind of let go and again started to have sexual thoughts after seeing a woman anywhere , started watching porn , it's been 3 days now and I don't like how I went from zero porn to watching it for hours a day.

I always relapse whenever I feel sad about my looks , always leads me to watching porn as I just lose hope .

I was beginning to like my looks for the first time , I am going to get back on track now , I have always felt like people don't like me because of my looks but I have now realised that those hateful feeling where never there , it was only in my mind ,

I have always looked at things with a filter of good looking and not good looking and now I realise that I was the only one doing that , I have missed so much social interaction because of this and watching porn.

Another thing I have noticed is the more porn I watch and the more sexual thoughts I get after watching girls , the more I start to hate my own looks , so going to put an absolute stop to that.