I don't wanna be around anymore

I'm a failure and nobody wants me here. My family is shitty towards me, and all of my friends are better off without me. Hell even people on reddit are better off if i weren't alive anymore. My life has no meaning. I have nothing to be passionate for. I don't want to keep existing. The antidepressants i was put on feel like they arent doing a thing. I just wanna be held as I cry. I make the people who promise to never hurt me and that they'll always be by my side absolutely furious with me and likely to abandon me with how clingy I am. I don't know how to just act like a person cause I get zero human contact within a day. I wish i wasn't me anymore.