i’m hopeless

does anyone else feel so hopeless with this all? I’m only 23 and I’ve had prolonged bleeding for years off & on. I’m exhausted. I don’t even know what to do anymore because doctors fail to listen or help me when i’m having heavy bleeding. i’m on over a month again & my body is exhausted & i feel so weak. I also have other chronic/mental illnesses that make this so much worse than it already is. I just find myself feeling so overwhelmed because I can’t seem to lose weight (5’6, 270lbs) , i’m scared of medications such as birth control (gave me horrible anxiety, migraines, and hypertension), i haven’t had a normal period in years, I can’t even have sex without bleeding, and I am horrified of blood work (especially during these periods bc i had a bad episode getting bloodwork while on one).I just feel like this has absolutely ripped my womanhood & life from me. Would anyone with success stories like to share? Or anyone who relates so I feel less alone.