just tired

M25, for the longest time i’ve tried to find someone. i’ve dated a small number of women that i’ve been able to feel comfortable with and begin to see futures with.

each time it has lead to heart break and confusion and fear of my future. i was hoping at this point id be married. but im alone again, staring at the ceiling at 3 in the morning dreading tomorrow.

i just want to love and be loved.