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Ewan ko... Idk what to say to be honest. I'm just posting this because I want to.

I always like to look back to previous posts and just remember the feeling when I posted something.

It's been a year with you.. feeling ko decade na ung nakalipas. Sa dami nang emotions na naramdaman ko sa one year natin. It's not perfect.. very far from perfect. Pero I appreciate your presence.. legit. I wasn't able to get what I wanted growing up, feeling ko din kaaway ko buong family ko so that's why I like living independently. 

Before you, I like living alone, sarili lang iniisip, sarili lang din pinagsisilbihan, well also my dog haha. 

I remember you telling me na feeling mo I'll never love you as much as how you love me. Tama ba? Pero you get it, right? In my head this is my full love I'm currently giving. The thought of losing you would make me crazy. Feeling ko hindi ko kakayanin? Parang OA ba? Maybe yes maybe no. 

Pero I know I'll self destruct pag nawala ka sakin. I don't like saying things directly to you because maybe I'm afraid pag nalaman mo how much you love me baka isipin mo pathetic ko naman like wala manlang akong ibang mahal haha unlike you, your friends and family love you. Pag nag hiwalay Tayo Jusko sarili ko lang meron ako hahaha. 

I love how you take care of me.. Minsan nagugulat pa din ako na tinatanong mo anong gusto ko and then proceed with giving me what I want. Like what? I don't need the beg for it? Or even fight you for it? Ganon ata pag traumatized ka as a kid. Lagi akong nla fight mode. But with you, kaya mong labanan ung fight mode ko and call me out. Then dun nagbburst ung bubble ng anger ko na shet lagi nga ata akong galit. Kahit na maliit na bagay badtrip ako lol.

I love how funny you are kahit nagmamake face ako, I love how straight forward you are with giving and asking affection. Kasi kung hndi ka Ganon Wala nang nangyari satin hahaha because you know how unaffectionate I am. 

Minsan nagkakaron ako ng burst of emotions kasi I can't believe how can someone love me with my ugale, mood swings, being cold and dead inside. 

I love you babe. Maya na lang ulit lol. 

Just something