A trip to Malaysia started my addiction and I can't move on, I need help..

I was raised in a very strict religious environment, we're not allowed to date or whatsoever before marriage. It made me curious about girls and dating in general but I never did much about it, last summer we went on a trip to Malaysia and it really ruined me. For context, I live in Kuwait and girls are dressed very modestly here, I've never seen a girl wearing a skirt or shorts in my life, but in Malaysia it was super normal to see girls wearing super short skirts (mostly Chinese women) and it was so freaking hot looking at their revealing clothes. Everyday I would go back to the hotel room, wait for my family to sleep and then end up mast*rbating in the shower 7-8 times every single night ._. The next day I woule go out and deliberatly look at their shorts, my eyes now crave to see that. I didn't try to lower my gaze or act shy I was just so freaking turned on and curious I wanted to see everything:') I still dream of going back, I think if I go back this summer I'm gonna try sneaking out and maybeeeeee if I'm lucky I can lose my virginityyy somehow or get my first kiss.

I want to get myself out of that loop, I literally touch myself every single day and Idk what to do. I tried finding hobbies and keeping myself busy but I just can't get the lustttt out of my mind ._.