guilt for buying books & understanding

hi!

i’m currently on break from uni until september and so i’ve been buying books and trying to read more, however the problem is that now my reading list for second year has come out, i have to buy even more and now i have a bunch of books that i have to put aside while i work my way through the list. luckily a good chunk of them are plays so they should be pretty easy to get through.

i’m also worried about not fully understanding what im reading, and i don’t know what im supposed to be picking out of the texts to make sure im prepared for september.

if anyone has any advice or just words or wisdom around my situation, that would really help. thank you!