Told my mom

It’s been years since I last told her. The last time she lashed out, demanded to see my injuries and crossed multiple boundaries.
I cut myself the first time yesterday and I am already running out of bandaids so, I decided to tell her. She was calm but ofc pushed for details that I didn’t want to disclose. I’m actually surprised I held my boundaries this time. I feel awkward now. A lot. I asked her to not treat me any differently now and she agreed but I bet she will either way.
This feels so weird. It feels like I confessed a crime lol