I failed as a human, i dont think i can forgive myself 💔

" I really love pets and now i m questioning myself "

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Today i was going to work from my room in my bike i was alone and in just 500 mtrs i just saw a cat in road writhing (shaking in pain) , i knew that some vechicle would have run through him and i though it was the cats leg from where i came from in bike it seems like an internal damage , but as soon as i came close i saw that it was laying in blood and shaking his half face was full of blood, dripping, the left eye portion was almost completely gone or soken in blood and i was thinking y is no one doing anything and passed that place , after like 500 meters i stopped my bike and search for any vetenary hospital nearby none was near but there was one , i really wanted to help but idk what i will do , all i was thinking was will someone else help him or if i go, how will i take him hospital how will i keep him till i reach hospital, it was excuse after excuse that fill up my mind

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I was thinking about it all day. Something was in my control i could take that poor thing to hospital yet i had many excuses. I wanted to tear all this excuse and help that cat but all i did was start my bike and moving forward thinking about what would happen to him.

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Y am i like this, a life was in my hand , i could have controlled the outcome and yet i did this and i cant forgive myself for this.